Chapter 126 Sheep Hunting Adventure
Wang Zixu read the note five or six times, then sat down slumped on the soft sofa.
When he read the note, he was in the dining room and the sofa was in the living room. From the time he read the note to when he sat down on the sofa, he had no memory at all. It was like a piece of film where someone carefully cut off a section and spliced the two ends together.
In fact, after reading that note, his perception of time became fragmented. One second he saw light outside the window, the next second he found it was dark; he was obviously still holding the note, but the next second the note was gone. He didn't know what he was doing or what to do next, and the logic of his life was completely disrupted.
When my wife left, I left a message saying not to look for her or contact her.
What happened to her? Why leave? Where to go? Where will you live in the coming days? How should he live next?
All problems made him feel confused and powerless.
This scene reminded him of the moment when Comrade Wang Jianguo came home and saw the note left by his mother when he was a child. Unexpectedly, many years later, he would be involved in it, change his role and become the starring role.
This may be what Nietzsche calls "eternal return." The universe is a huge rotor.
As a bystander and as a witness, when facing the same thing, the feelings are completely different. When he was a child, his mother's departure did not cause a particularly huge uproar in his heart. In fact, he could not understand the connotation of this incident at the time. It was not until later that life gradually taught him what "mother is gone" means.
However, when he became the object of abandonment, he felt its destructive power: it was the black mist that shrouded his head like a lead mass, as if it was about to come down and engulf him at any time. The departure of his wife not only has unclear meaning, but also negates his entire person and even his entire life.
Wang Zixu went to the bathroom to wash his face, and sat on the dark sofa to rest. After a long time, he came to his senses in a daze and began to think about the matter seriously.
The first thing he thought of was: Why did his wife run away from home?
The reason why my mother ran away from home was very simple, and it was obvious: she couldn't stand the life with Comrade Wang Jianguo, and she had a better choice.
Before the note that finally set off the whole story appeared, there was already a lengthy preparation for this ending. At that time, Wang Zixu remembered that his parents were quarreling day and night, and the family relationship was already on the verge of breakdown. Even the neighbors next door could see that the family was in danger.
However, the sudden departure of Wang Zixu’s wife came without any warning and even seemed inexplicable. The day before, they were having a great time.
He still remembered that he drove Ye Lan’s Audi to pick up his wife, which surprised her and asked him angrily why he bought a car without asking him.
He told her (not without pride) that this car was lent to him by a friend, and he drove it here specially to show it to his wife. If he likes it, he might as well buy an Audi instead of a Porsche. Wouldn't it save a lot of money? The wife got in the car and was really happy afterwards.
Of course, he concealed the gender of his friend. The fragrance on Ye Lan's car, the shiny pendant hanging on the front fender, the cute bear doll tied to the seat... These decorations that indicate the gender of the car owner have been put away by him in advance.
They discussed whether to have seafood or barbecue for dinner. The prince pretended to want to eat seafood because he had made a small fortune recently and deserved a luxurious meal. My wife believes that with the recent discharge of nuclear sewage into the sea in Japan, all seafood is untrustworthy. What's more, she is preparing for pregnancy, which is when she needs trust the most.
Wang Zixu said that if seafood is not trustworthy, then barbecue is not trustworthy either. The people who should really be suspicious are the Japanese, the fish and shrimps are innocent. Because of his objections, his wife and he had a short temper tantrum, and eventually they agreed to go eat Thai food.
His wife asked him again, you just said you made a small profit, how much was it? The prince hid the 800,000 yuan and told his wife that he had made more than 100,000 yuan in one go, of which 100,000 yuan was a bonus. His wife covered her mouth and was surprised for a long time, which made him very satisfied.
In short, they have discussed the basic necessities of life, including food, clothing, housing, transportation, and preparation for pregnancy. Everything is developing for the better, and there is no reason for his wife to disappear.
Although after such analysis, he found that he did have secrets from his wife in many aspects, but he chose to hide them from his wife for the sake of family harmony and stability. He had a clear conscience.
If you tell your wife that your car was borrowed from a woman, and you also lent money to her, and at the same time, you earned more than one million from the woman, your wife will definitely be furious, and even if she is not angry, she will be suspicious. Doubt can murder a marriage.
Even if his wife finds out these secrets, she will not leave without saying a word and say goodbye to his life, without even giving him a chance to defend himself. He is not guilty of this.
“It’s simple, she cheated.”
Sartre's figure emerged from the darkness, holding his small pipe in his mouth, and said hello to him: "Long time no see."
Wang Zixu glanced at him, and he did not agree with his conclusion from the bottom of his heart, and he did not treat him with the same enthusiasm as an old friend.
Sartre said: "Of course, the word 'cheating' is not very accurate. The relationship between you and your wife is a bit similar to Beauvoir and I. There is no legal contractual relationship. In the words of you Chinese, she has 'changed her heart.'"
Wang Zixu said: "Impossible."
Sartre took a puff of his cigarette and said: "If you deny this only possibility out of male dignity, I think my experience can probably help you: I have always believed that the institution of marriage is not sacred, it is just an institution. Since it is an institution, there will be a day when legislation is adopted and a day when it is terminated. The Pillar Code is still there today, not in Babylon.
"That's what Beauvoir and I did. I'm okay with her having many other partners, and she's okay with me doing the same. She was blatantly judged as a 'slut' by many people, but I didn't mind and still regarded her as my only soul mate in life.
"Passion is passion, and companionship is companionship. I keep the two very separate. I want to remind you that the flowering period of sexual attraction is very short-lived and will disappear soon as you grow older. You, at this age, happen to be the most attractive golden age. It’s the stage when flowers are blooming.
“There’s no time to be depressed. Get dressed up quickly, comb your hair, put on clean and tidy clothes, go out now, pick a girl you like and start a new life with her. If the person leaves, let her go. You should always be ready to welcome new people. As long as your pace is fast enough, the sadness of life will never catch up with you. ”
Wang Zixu turned to him and spread his hands at him: "I think you are very unauthentic. And I am a very authentic person. If I knew that Beauvoir was suffering from such a reputation because of me, I would be embarrassed to say that marrying her as soon as possible is the right thing. I don't know why you keep pestering me, I am not with you. Man. I’m already very annoyed, but you’ve made me even more annoyed!” The little prince said, “Please tell him to calm down. Not everyone can accept your theory.”
Well, this guy came out of nowhere.
Sartre said: "Maybe I have taken too big a step, but my heart is good, and the purpose is to save him from the edge of inner collapse."
The little prince said: "Come on, philosophy can never save people. Reason is the enemy of emotion. When there is trauma in the heart, the more rational thinking is, the easier it is to hurt oneself. In his case, the only thing that can truly heal the heart is a warm hug from the opposite sex. Hug."
Sartre spread his hands and said, "I'm sorry, I'm a man. I don't have this ability physically."
The two chatted at Wang Zixu's house. Wang Zixu put the fingers of his hands into his hair. His thoughts were very messy. He concentrated and finally clarified a small part of his thoughts.
The first and most clear thing is that his wife is gone. Just like when his mother left his father. The reasons are unclear and the reasons are unclear. Just leave.
The wife left a note, which means that her disappearance was voluntary. She also said not to look for her or contact her.
Wang Zixu took out his mobile phone and wanted to call his wife, but was reminded that the number was empty. He also tried to contact his father-in-law and mother-in-law, but no one answered the phone. No one was willing to stand up and give him an explanation.
But on the bright side, part of his salary and savings are deposited in his wife’s bank account, including her own savings. Since she has money, there is no need to worry about her, she will take care of herself.
The only problem is that I am left alone.
Wang Zixu smiled bitterly. Damn it, isn’t this the same as Haruki Murakami’s literature about finding a wife?
Several of Haruki Murakami’s books begin with his wife running away, and then the protagonist begins his own adventure. If he uses this as his experience, he might be able to write a book called "The Journey of Strange Birds" or "The Assassination of the Knight Commander".
Of course, if it is a novel, the wife’s running away can only be regarded as a motive, and the focus is on the adventure that follows. He came up with an idea: He could let the protagonist follow the traces of life left by his wife, let him search for his wife's past, keep getting closer to the core of the wife (and also the core of marriage), and connect the 20 years of changes in China during the protagonist's journey.
The title of the book is tentatively "The Adventure of Seeking a Wife". This name sounds very earthy, and it is indeed very earthy. It pays homage to Murakami's "The Adventures of Sheep". The combination of "Looking for Sheep" and "Adventures" has the flavor of language defamiliarization, but "Looking for Wife" is not like that at all. So this is just a tentative name and will definitely be changed in the future.
He briefly estimated the word count. If he was more restrained, he could write 200,000 words. If he streamlined it further, he could delete it to 150,000 words, but that would inevitably raise the reading threshold. It will be difficult to sell the book.
Wang Zixu came back to his senses and suddenly smiled bitterly. His wife had already left. He was still thinking about how to write a novel. What would his wife think if she knew about it? He slapped himself hard.
The phone rang and I quickly picked it up, only to see that the caller displayed on the screen was Zuo Ziliang.
"What are you doing? Why haven't I responded to so many messages to you? Tonight is the last live broadcast before changing the terms. Did you forget the time you set?"
Wang Zixu felt a chill behind him: "I'll be right over."
He stood up, felt dizzy, and lay back on the sofa.
"No, I might not be able to come today. I encountered an unexpected situation here. My wife ran away from home." Wang Zixu smiled bitterly while lying on the sofa.
“Your wife ran away from home?”
Zuo Ziliang was shocked, then calmed down and said, "Have you called the police?"
"She left me a note, asking me not to look for her or contact her."< /p>
There was a moment of silence on the other end of the phone, and then Zuo Ziliang said: "Do you know the reason?"
"I don't know at all. Nod. No emotion at all. ”
“Cheating?”
“It’s unlikely, I’ve never seen her have any other relationships with the opposite sex.”
“Did she take away your property?”
“Most of my assets are in my own hands.”
Zuo Ziliang thought for a while and said: "Then you should come over."
"What?"
"Today is the final blow to Qingyan app, you must come over in person," Zuo Ziliang said , "It's not important that my wife left. She wanted to leave on her own, and you didn't force her to leave. If you really want to find her, you can find her later, but if you miss the last live broadcast tonight, can you afford it?"
Wang Zixu felt unbelievable. He used to think that Zuo Ziliang was just a little too rational and not bad in nature. Squeeze people when you should squeeze them, and let go when you should give them power. This is a character that does great things. But he didn't expect that he could say such words.
When someone else’s wife passed away, he could calmly say “it’s not important”. If that doesn't matter, what else matters?
"You know? If it weren't for my wife, I wouldn't know you at all, nor would I become a script writer, nor would I choose to become a little prince. I have a friend who said that family is a safe haven in life. I didn't understand it before, and I couldn't feel it until my wife left. How come you have no empathy?"
Zuo Ziliang said: "Bullshit, what kind of bullshit haven is family? You don't want to be a script writer, do you think I just want to be a businessman? If it wasn't forced by the family, seven aunts, eight aunts, relatives from all walks of life, if it weren't for a group of screaming trash, You, are you willing to work hard to move forward? What if your safe haven collapses? Even if your wife goes to the end of the world, you will not die!"
Wang Zixu hung up his phone and sat quietly on the sofa.
Sartre said: "You know what? He is right."
Wang Zixu said: "Shut up."
After half an hour, Zuo Ziliang came downstairs to his house, whistled in the yard, and shouted:
"Little prince! Come down!"
Wang Zixu hurriedly ran to the balcony and made a shushing gesture to Zuo Ziliang downstairs, telling him to stop making noise. Zuo Ziliang smiled coldly, then went upstairs and knocked on his door.
He knew that he would never be clean today, so he opened the door and let Zuo Ziliang in. The bald man was wearing a leather jacket. As soon as he entered the door, he pinched his nose:
"What does this smell like?"
"Stop talking nonsense, come in quickly, I don't want the neighbors to see you standing in front of my house."
Zuo Ziliang’s appearance is suspicious. If Wang Zixu gets up tomorrow and his neighbors ask him who the little prince is, he may even have the intention to kill someone.
Zuo Ziliang walked in, holding his hands behind his back: "Where is the light? Why don't you turn on the lights at home? I thought you were not at home."
He casually pressed the switch next to him, and after seeing the scene in the house clearly, he took a deep breath.
(End of this chapter)