Chapter 237: Slow in the past

Chapter 237 Once Upon a Time

When Wang Zixu met An Younan for the first time, she held his hands and shook them back and forth. Although she had the fresh aftertaste of Oulon Citrus Cologne, the close social distance still made him, an i person, feel very uncomfortable.

That night he was lying on the bed ruminating, feeling that this "caiyuan" was not only good at dancing and weird, but also gave him an inexplicable sense of intimacy. This time, he suspected that he was a pervert, and he started to feel confused after being touched by the girl's hand.

While half asleep and half awake, he suddenly thought of the source of this sense of intimacy: Ah, it turns out her surname is An, which is the same as my mother.

Wang Zixu’s mother’s surname is An, which is an extremely rare surname. Wang Zixu's father's surname is Wang, which is an extremely common surname. When he was young, Wang Zixu had the same surname as his own. He was an ordinary boy who could be seen everywhere.

So like other crazy men and women of the same age, he had also vaguely fantasized: What if my surname is not Wang? But if my surname is An, will my life be any different? Will it become less common?

The answer is obvious. Of course there will be differences. If his surname is An, then he is not Zixu, but An Zixu. This name is like the second male protagonist in a fairy novel, who is the master of the heroine, and later had an unethical love affair with the heroine.

This idea gradually disappeared as he grew up. Wang Zixu is Wang Zixu. He has a very common surname and is one of the ordinary people. It is a pity.

In short, after he learned An Younan’s name, he didn’t immediately react, “This is my mother’s surname.” This made him feel very guilty later.

It can be seen from this that the role of mother, as an individual, has faded out of Wang Zixu's life for a long time. It has been so long that he needs reaction time before he is touched by his mother's surname.

We all know that when Wang Zixu was 8 years old, his mother left home and never came back.

But this does not mean that Wang Zixu never saw his mother again after he was 8 years old. In fact, he saw it once when he was 14 years old.

He was in junior high school at the time. During the second class in the afternoon, the head teacher appeared at the door of the classroom and called him out, so he saw Ms. An in the corridor.

Ms. An opened her arms, smiled like a flower, hugged him tightly, and then took him to McDonald's and ordered a large table of fried chicken and burgers.

During the meal, Ms. An chatted a lot with him, chattering endlessly, but he completely forgot what she said. All his thoughts were focused on dealing with the fried chicken.

There was only one sentence that impressed him: Ms. An promised him that when she established herself in the future, she would take Wang Zixu to the East China Sea and live with her.

How Wang Zixu responded at that time, he himself had forgotten. The finger sucking plain chicken is really hard to deal with. Most likely he didn't respond with anything.

But even if Ms. An really planned to take him away, he probably wouldn’t agree. Ms. An abandoned Lao Wang and left. It would be too unfair to Lao Wang if he also abandoned Lao Wang.

The next day when he arrived at school, a group of classmates gathered around him and asked him if the beautiful, brand-name white-collar woman who came to pick him up yesterday was his mother.

It turns out that after Ms. An left yesterday, her appearance and demeanor left a deep impression on the students. How does she look like a middle-aged woman who has given birth to a child? She is simply a gorgeous female star.

The students discussed her hairstyle, her clothes, her appearance and figure. No matter what, it is impossible to connect her image with this rustic guy like Wang Zixu.

Some fashionistas among the students even discovered that Ms. An’s clothes and jewelry may be more expensive than the entire class’s outfits combined, and with her temperament and confidence level, there is no way they are pirated.

Everyone was amazed at Wang Zixu’s mother, and even looked at Wang Zixu more than once. Everyone showed undisguised admiration for him, and many people who usually ignored him came to talk to him.

In short, a visit from Ms. An unexpectedly made Wang Zixu a famous figure in his grade. For the first time, Wang Zixu realized that having a mother was such a good thing.

Later, Ms. An chatted with Wang Zixu online several times. Wang Zixu didn't have his own mobile phone, so he could only reply to messages in computer class. A conversation dragged on for a long time, making online chatting feel slower than before.

Later, the frequency of chats between the two gradually decreased, and Ms. An did not mention her plan to take Zixu out of Xihe again, so the matter was dismissed. Then there was no contact at all.

When Wang Zixu saw Ms. An again, it was now.

The moment he saw her, all the fragmented life passages were connected in his mind.

An Younan looked around like a nervous golden hamster, pretending to be calm, but the expression on her face revealed the panic in her heart.

“Heh.” She let out a dry laugh and said to Wang Zixu, “You see you are so nervous that you even called me the wrong name...”

"Zixu." Ms. An's words made An Younan fall into silence, "Follow me."

The expression on her face was serious, even a little unhappy.

An Younan said: "Mom, he is..."

"Don't talk yet." She stopped An Younan with a stern tone, "I have something to talk with him, you just stay in the living room, no You have to move around freely."

"But he..."

"Be obedient!"

An Younan pursed his lips, feeling aggrieved like a baby. Wang Zixu had never seen her look so weak, pitiful and helpless.

“Follow me.”

Wang Zixu followed his mother to the second floor. She pushed open a door and waved to him: "Come in." So Wang Zixu went in.

This seemed to be her room. She casually moved a chair from in front of the dressing table, pointed at the chair and said, "Sit down." Wang Zixu then sat down again.

Ms. An sat opposite him.

She is old.

Her facial skin is fair and soft, and her hair is still dark and thick. At first glance, she looks like a woman in her twenties or thirties.

But if you observe for a while, you will find that due to the frequent use of hyaluronic acid to stabilize her appearance, her apple muscles are a bit stiff, and her eyes also show the fatigue that only the elderly can have.

Wang Zixu wanted to cry at this time, but he couldn't shed a single tear.

Her appearance has not changed much compared to Wang Zixu’s memory, but her temperament has changed a lot.

In his memory, she wore a frayed apron and would magically take out many dishes from the kitchen;

She would sit by the bed, and the clothes that passed her hands would be folded up as flatly as if they had been ironed;

She would wait on time at the school gate, raise her hands high when she saw Wang Zixu coming out, and then they would hold hands and walk along the street where the sunset was shining.

But the woman’s temperament in front of her was completely different, completely different from her childhood impression. The years seemed to be slipping away through a funnel, and no trace of those years could be found.

“What are you doing recently?” Ms. An asked.

“I was invited by your daughter to publish a book.” Wang Zixu answered honestly. He completely forgot what An Younan told him.

Ms. An said: "I'm not asking you this, I'm asking, what work are you doing?"

"I quit my job. I now write full-time."

Ms. An said: "Didn't you pass the civil service examination in Xihe before?"

Wang Zixu said: "I quit."

Ms. An frowned.

Her point is, why should we resign from a job as a civil servant? What are you thinking about? But Wang Zixu thought she just didn't hear clearly.

“Zixu, you are quite old now,” Ms. An said, “Are you over thirty this year?”

“Thirty-one.”

“You’re thirty-one, why are you still acting like a child?” she said, “You quit your job, what will you do in the future? How will you pay for your medical insurance and social security? When you go out and people ask you what you do, how do you feel about yourself? Introduction? "You said you are unemployed?"

"It's not like I can't afford it"

"You still can't afford it," she said. I have to support your dad. With your income so unstable, can you afford to support the two of you? "

"My book has just been published in "Get" and will be published soon. I will get the royalties. I want to win a literary award, so I can..."

Wang Zixu finally plucked up the courage and wanted to talk about his achievements, but was immediately interrupted by Ms. An.

"How much income can you get from royalties? It's not a few decades ago now. Can a book last a lifetime?"

After Ms. An finished speaking, she added: "I have met many writers. They all have serious jobs so that they have status in society. You just hope to be respected by others by creating creations. Are you married? "

"Yes, no, not married." "Are you married?"

This question confused Wang Zixu, yes, am I married?

“It’s over.” He said.

“Does your wife support you quitting your job to write?” Ms. An asked.

Wang Zixu said: "She ran away from home."

Ms. An frowned and stared at him for a long time, she seemed to finally soften and sighed.

“I didn’t care enough about you before, blame me. You may have blamed me in your heart, but I also have my own reasons.”

“I have never blamed you.” Wang Zixu said.

“How did you find this place?”

“Coincidence.”

“Younan didn’t invite you, so you couldn’t come here. Do you know who she is and that’s why you got involved with her?”

"No," Wang Zixu felt sweating on his back, "I only found out about her relationship with you today."

Ms. An stared at him for a long time, as if she wanted to see from his eyes whether he was telling the truth.

After a long time, she sighed, opened her handbag, rummaged for something in her handbag, moved quickly, and finally took out a card.

“I have a bank card here, with about two hundred thousand in it, take it.”

Wang Zixu did not reach out.

“Not enough? I only have so much on hand.” Ms. An raised her eyebrows.

"No," Wang Zixu said, "I don't need money."

Ms. An took back the card: "I know it was wrong of me not to see you these years. But I don't want to see your dad, and he doesn't want to see me.

"This marriage with your dad was a mistake in my life, and I spent a lot of money to correct this mistake. When I see you, I will think of him, do you understand? "

The prince nodded, feeling a little bitter in his heart: "Understood. "

"I thought about taking you over before," Ms. An said, her smile suddenly appeared, and then suddenly dimmed, "But I couldn't do it. I don’t want to give you the illusion that you can rely on me. You still have to rely on yourself. ”

Wang Zixu shook his head: "I never thought of relying on others."

"Even though I am so glamorous now, there are also many unknown pains behind my back. I can't just do whatever I want." Ms. An sighed, " You can never imagine how much hardship I have endured, and I can’t tell anyone about it.”

Wang Zixu nodded: “Yes.”

But he thought to himself, I can’t tell anyone about the hardship I’ve endured.

"Go back." Ms. An's expression became serious. "If you have anything to do in the future, you can send me a message. Don't you have my contact information? Don't contact my social circle anymore, and don't contact Younan anymore."

After a pause, she added: "It's not good for her, it's not good for me, and it's not good for you. You know? If you don't think about us, you have to think about yourself."

"Yeah."

"Remember, son," Ms. An said, "people live by their fate, and some people are born with good fortunes, such as Younan. If you mess with people who have bad fortunes, you will only make yourself worse. You have to recognize bad fates, do you understand?"

Wang Zixu nodded.

"Okay, go out and call An Younan in. Don't leave until we come out."

Wang Zixu stood up and pushed the door out. As soon as he opened the door, he met An Younan's sight.

She looked pitiful and on the verge of tears. She hesitated to speak and looked at Wang Zixu, as if she wanted to ask him for proof.

“Your mother asked you to come in.” Wang Zixu said.

An Younan took two steps forward and opened her mouth. Before she spoke, Wang Zixu whispered: "Go in." He pushed her in.

After closing the door, Wang Zixu slowly went downstairs.

The time An Younan spent in the room was three times longer than the time Wang Zixu spent there. They talked for a long time, during which the volume became louder and louder, but it was difficult to hear what was being said. Later, the volume decreased and the conversation became quieter.

Finally, the two of them walked out. An Younan's eyes were red, and he lowered his head and walked past Wang Zixu. Ms. An patted Wang Zixu on the shoulder.

“Go back.” She said, “I’ll ask Younan to take you back.”

……

Wang Zixu Following An Younan, he went out and found the car. An Younan pointed at the car door dully: "I don't want to drive it, just sit upright and drive."

After getting in the car, Wang Zixu didn't say a word from starting the vehicle to driving out of the community. She didn't speak until she reached the main road:

"She didn't let me see you anymore. I had a fight with her, and she agreed that I would come to see you off for the last time."

Wang Zixu said, Oh.

"What did you say to her inside?"

"It's almost the same topic," Wang Zixu said, "She won't let me meet you again, which is not good for us."

An Younan looked down at his expression: "Is she really your mother?"< /p>

"Yes."

"If my dad knew that I was in contact with you and knew this relationship, he would probably be furious." An Younan said, "So she said it was not good for us."

Wang Zixu also knew this.

It is easy for couples who have become monks to have such taboos in their relationship. Regardless of whether Ma Yongrong knows about Ms. An's past, the appearance of Wang Zixu, the inexplicable eldest son, will always make people a little scared.

“Is she really your mother?” An Younan asked again.

“Yes.” Wang Zixu answered again.

“Why didn’t you tell me before?”

“I just found out too.”

"So, you said that your mother and your father divorced, and then she went to the East China Sea and gave birth to me."

Wang Zixu simply said: "Yes."

"So, you are my half-brother." An Younan concluded.

“Yeah.” Wang Zixu said again.

An Younan burst out suddenly, grabbed Wang Zixu's arm with both hands, and shook it hard: "Why why why why why..."

The car swerved sideways and almost veered out of the driveway. Fortunately, this was Binjiang Avenue, and there was no pedestrian on the road. Wang Zixu hugged the steering wheel tightly and scolded in a low voice: "Don't make trouble!"

"Why is this happening! I don't want you to be my brother!"

An Younan cried "Wow".

Wang Zixu turned the steering wheel and found a place to stop the car. The car stopped, but An Younan was still crying and didn't stop at all.

"Why are you my brother? How do you resemble me? The person in the world who is least likely to be my brother is you, why are you?"

Wang Zixu was originally in a low mood, but it was a bit funny to hear An Younan lose his temper in such a childish way. Get up and say:

"Yes, I am not worthy of being your brother, and I have never wanted to take advantage of this."

Then, An Younan turned over unexpectedly, turned over, straddled his lap, grabbed his collar with both hands, and stared at him with a serious expression.

"I don't want you to be my brother."

"If I can, I don't want to be your brother. I'm not the kind of person who follows people's influence. If I can, I hope I will never have anything to do with your family."

An Younan slapped him, and Wang Zixu was caught off guard and slapped on the face, and was stunned.

She said: "You don't understand what I'm talking about. Forget it, let's forget about it and just pretend that you have never been to my house today."

"Huh?" Wang Zixu didn't understand his thinking.

“You have never been to my house, you have not met my mother, you are not my brother,” An Younan said, “Let’s start from scratch.”

"Come, what are you coming for?"

"Let's fall in love!"

Wang Zixu said: "Are you crazy too?"

"You are crazy, I am not crazy, I am very sober now," An Younan stroked her hair back, The long black hair spread like a waterfall, "I have already studied and decided that today's incident will be treated as if it never happened. Let's talk about it how we want to."

"The key is who said that I want to talk to you?"

An Younan slapped the headrest behind his head hard, and Wang Zixu's body shook.

“You won’t talk to me about kissing me? Are you being unreasonable?”

Wang Zixu felt more and more unreasonable about women:

“Isn’t that a sudden attack by you?...Don’t mention that, my stomach is churning when I think about it now, That’s the thing that should be forgotten...”

“I don’t care about that!” An Younan started to pester, crying, “I won’t accept it anyway”